Freedom or Jail? [Part 1]

Although we are obsess with

Freedom,

laws, policy, and rules

make the way of life work.

Life is a Jail.

Jail
Is where we put the 
criminals, guilty, mastermind,
victim, innocence, the pawn. 
Why?
It's not because the don't deserve
Freedom.
It's because we can control them in a 
Jail.


Control
is the next thing we want in life
after Freedom.
"I'm single and Free, I Control my own destiny"
"I don't believe in God because
I'm a Free thinker, I control my own fate."
"I'm no slave, I'm a Free man!
I Control my own life."
How can you have those
two words 
in
one sentence?
Control, pfft.


Freedom
is too big to
Control.


Death
is too big to
Control.


Life
is too big to
Control.


But we need Control.


Therefore, we create
laws, policy, and rules
on
what,when,why,how and what we eat.
Just like in a Jail.
Life is a Jail.


We are just waiting.
                                 waiting.
                                             waiting.
                                                         Waiting for our execution.

What's the point?

Virtue

This week
Had The Bad Mondays.
Meaning they come twice a month,
3 classes, 1 lecture, begins at 8.30am, ends at 6pm.
I was unprepared, I skipped the two morning classes
and came for the lecture.
A stupid, sappy, slow lecture. A philosophy lecture.


I came late.
No worries. I didn't miss anything.
Half-asleep, dumbfounded, I sat alone.
I heard mumbles from the audience,
Lecture from a video. 
I closed my eyes.


I slept.
For a while.
A word from the lecture
Caught my interest.
A single word.


Virtue.


I've heard of it, 
But never knew what it truly meant.
I'm up.


Ancient Greek ethics lingers:
"How can I be happy?"
Despite age, race, and era,
mankind has been trying
to answer this question.


Government set laws
so people can find happiness.
Parents set rules
so children can find happiness.
We set goals,
so we can find happiness.


I have my laws, rules, and goals.
Faith in God, 
Believe in Yourself,
Enjoy Life. 
But I haven't found my drive yet.


Until now.


Jason Mraz sang: 
"Your name is your virtue."
Samurai's success is based on: 
"Their Bushido  that emphasizes on virtues."
The Greek answered the question:
"by means of virtue or excellence."


Virtue and Excellence will drive me.


Imagine if I was late 10 more minutes 
that afternoon?
I would have missed all this.
Fate?
No more being unprepared, late, half-asleep.
Who knew bad days can turn into something...
Excellent.

The Nest and Freedom

Eager and excited was the feeling.

The feeling of flying out of the Nest.

"Finally"

I thought to myself.

After 18 years, I'm finally able to

taste Freedom. 

I'm far away from home, now.

Cold and cruel the climate.

I can see the light...the destination.

Of Freedom.

But I can fly, no more.

I'm in the in between.

Now, I feel sleeping in the warm Nest.

Later, I feel being in the spotlight. 

I miss them.

So much.

But again, I'm in the between.

Quiting was never an option.

It's been a month, I have 6 years.

Freedom will be my Nest. 

I'll survive.